||[Jul. 31st, 2004|05:21 am]
|||||Seether f. Amy Lee - Broken||]|
I'm so confused right now. With life, myself, everything. As much as I wish everything, or even anything could just be black and white, everything just stays grey. It's so hard to express or truely feel like myself lately because I can't make sense of anything.
I hate myself. I hate the way I look, I hate the way I act, I hate the way I do everything, and I hate the fact that I hate myself. I wish I could be happy with myself, but no matter how hard I try, I just can't.
I seem to strive for perfection (for what I see as perfection, not anyone else), but I don't have the mental will or physical resources to achieve it or learn to live without it.
There's so much going on right now, on top of not even being able to reach myself. I feel so alone, and I just can't figure things out by myself.